Alright, I have decided that I stop medication. And I have done so, about a week ago. It was and still is quite a hard time for me, because I’m facing all kinds of difficulties by stopping with the medication. I’m having a lot of feelings now, and that is hard, if you can imagine living virtually without them for 4 years. I had a panic attack, but when I looked it up, that was just a sign that’s present because I stopped with medication. Same with nausea, sweating, diarrhea, loss of appetite etc..
It is kind of incredible though that one pill a day can do that with you. I was very surprised as well. I didn’t take a whole lot (I mean, they counted in milligrams, that’s not a lot at all), but still I really noticed that I stopped. I am still having symptoms of it, even though it has been over a week. I’m feeling quite sick, like I have a flu or something, only with a whole lot of emotions added to it. I won’t take any more though. Actually, the sick feeling that I have adds to the thought that it was poison and I just shouldn’t take any more. I switched to the stuff that is sold here, because I didn’t notice any side effects of that. It just does what it says it does.
There were multiple reasons that I stopped. First of all, my liver was being damaged by them. All my liver values were above the maximum that it is allowed to go. Actually, my blood should have been tested every now and then by the doctors and psychiatrists that medicated me, because they know that my liver can be damaged because of them. They didn’t do that until about 4 months ago, when I was already taking that stuff for 4 years. I thought that was a little late to be testing, especially when the outcome is that my liver was indeed being damaged. The doctor even said I should drink less, while the last drink I had was 6 months before that.
 Second of all I didn’t feel a lot anymore when I should feel a lot. There was a brake on my feelings and sometimes that really irritated me, because not only the negative emotions were taken away, but also the positive ones, and I like the positive emotions. I was just in a constant state of neutrality. Which might not have meant a lot to me (because I was neutral about it), but for the people around me it wasn’t nice. I didn’t show a lot to people because I didn’t feel a lot, which made it hard for me to get friends. So I felt I needed to change that. In replacement I now take Satieté, which stimulates the positive emotions but not the negative ones. That is, of course, better than what I was taking. Now I can really enjoy things in a way that was unknown to me for years. I think that stopping was one of the hardest, but also one of the best, decisions in my life.
After a while, like I said, I started taking satieté. In combination with the fish oil I feel that the symptoms are much easier to deal with. For one thing, the panic attacks are gone now that I take satieté, and that was easily the hardest thing about the stopping. Also the vague feeling that I ought to have in my head isn’t really present, because the Omega3 and the WINrgy keep me alert and focused. In short, the mental problems that I was facing are almost all gone. And the mental problems are, of course, the hardest ones to face and conquer.
Danny
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